Childhood adversity & the stress response
What early adversity leaves behind in the way body and brain answer an acute psychosocial stressor — cortisol, network dynamics, and what separates the people who recover quickly from those who do not.
Physician & Psychiatric Researcher
Research Fellow, Department of Psychiatry and Psychology, XXXPreviously Friedrich Schiller University Jena
Childhood adversity, stress responsivity, depression and translational neuroscience.
Physician and psychiatric researcher. I study how childhood adversity shapes the way the brain and the body answer stress — with neuroimaging, magnetic resonance spectroscopy and machine learning.
MD thesis at Friedrich Schiller University Jena with Dr Lejla Colic and Prof Dr Martin Walter. Approbation — the full German licence to practise medicine — in 2025.
In the clinic
The measurements are worth taking because of what happens in the room. Psychiatry is the one part of medicine where the instrument is the conversation.
Away from the desk
Football soccer
Exercising
Language learning
Reading
2025
How 2025 read — to be written. Two or three sentences: what I kept circling around, what changed my mind, what I put down half way.
Honorable
mentions
Nos.15–11
No.10
Between Us: How Cultures Create Emotions
What this one changed — to be written.
No.9
Attached: The New Science of Adult Attachment and How It Can Help You Find—and Keep—Love
What this one changed — to be written.
No.8
The Evolution of Cooperation
What this one changed — to be written.
No.7
Career and Family: Women’s Century-Long Journey toward Equity
What this one changed — to be written.
No.6
Stop Walking on Eggshells: Taking Your Life Back When Someone You Care About Has Borderline Personality Disorder
What this one changed — to be written.
No.5
A History of God: The 4,000-Year Quest of Judaism, Christianity and Islam
What this one changed — to be written.
No.4
The Long Game: China’s Grand Strategy to Displace American Order
What this one changed — to be written.
No.3
Chinese Thought: From Confucius to Cook Ding
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No.2
The Divided Mind: Uncovering Psychiatry’s Dark Past and Reimagining Its Future
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No.1
Man and His Symbols
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2024
How 2024 read — to be written. Two or three sentences: what I kept circling around, what changed my mind, what I put down half way.
Honorable
mentions
Nos.15–11
No.10
The Joy of X: A Guided Tour of Math, from One to Infinity
What this one changed — to be written.
No.9
The New Leviathans: Thoughts After Liberalism
What this one changed — to be written.
No.8
End Times: Elites, Counter-Elites, and the Path of Political Disintegration
What this one changed — to be written.
No.7
The Gulag Archipelago, 1918–1956: An Experiment in Literary Investigation
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No.6
Man’s Search for Himself
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No.5
A Liberated Mind: How to Pivot Toward What Matters
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No.4
Malady of the Mind: Schizophrenia and the Path to Prevention
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No.3
How Big Things Get Done: The Surprising Factors That Determine the Fate of Every Project, from Home Renovations to Space Exploration
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No.2
Artificial Intelligence: A Guide for Thinking Humans
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No.1
Antifragile: Things That Gain from Disorder
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2023
How 2023 read — to be written. Two or three sentences: what I kept circling around, what changed my mind, what I put down half way.
Honorable
mentions
Nos.15–11
No.10
How to Be a Conservative
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No.9
Nineteen Eighty-Four
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No.8
The Road to Serfdom
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No.7
The Age of Surveillance Capitalism: The Fight for a Human Future at the New Frontier of Power
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No.6
Bernoulli’s Fallacy: Statistical Illogic and the Crisis of Modern Science
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No.5
The Money Formula: Dodgy Finance, Pseudo Science, and How Mathematicians Took Over the Markets
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No.4
The Dawn of Everything: A New History of Humanity
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No.3
Breaking Through Depression: A Guide to the Next Generation of Promising Research and Revolutionary New Treatments
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No.2
How Emotions Are Made: The Secret Life of the Brain
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No.1
Making Social Science Matter: Why Social Inquiry Fails and How It Can Succeed Again
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2022
How 2022 read — to be written. Two or three sentences: what I kept circling around, what changed my mind, what I put down half way.
Honorable
mentions
Nos.15–11
No.10
The Science of Science
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No.9
The Art of War
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No.8
In Search of Memory: The Emergence of a New Science of Mind
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No.7
From Bacteria to Bach and Back: The Evolution of Minds
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No.6
From Third World to First: The Singapore Story, 1965–2000
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No.5
Healing: Our Path from Mental Illness to Mental Health
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No.4
Wanting: The Power of Mimetic Desire in Everyday Life
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No.3
Bullshit Jobs: A Theory
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No.2
Shrinks: The Untold Story of Psychiatry
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No.1
Safe Haven: Investing for Financial Storms
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2021
How 2021 read — to be written. Two or three sentences: what I kept circling around, what changed my mind, what I put down half way.
Honorable
mentions
Nos.15–11
No.10
Happy Accidents: Serendipity in Major Medical Breakthroughs in the Twentieth Century
What this one changed — to be written.
No.9
The Art of Statistics: How to Learn from Data
What this one changed — to be written.
No.8
The Depths: The Evolutionary Origins of the Depression Epidemic
What this one changed — to be written.
No.7
Ten Principles for Doing Effective Couples Therapy
What this one changed — to be written. One or two sentences on the idea that moved something, not a summary of the book.
No.6
Happy Ever After: A Radical New Approach to Living Well
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No.5
The Geography of Thought: How Asians and Westerners Think Differently… and Why
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No.4
A Confession
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No.3
Skin in the Game: Hidden Asymmetries in Daily Life
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No.2
Good Reasons for Bad Feelings: Insights from the Frontier of Evolutionary Psychiatry
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No.1
Resonanz: Eine Soziologie der Weltbeziehung (Resonance: A Sociology of Our Relationship to the World)
Unverfügbarkeit (The Uncontrollability of the World)
What this one changed — to be written. One or two sentences on the idea that moved something, not a summary of the book.
2020
How 2020 read — to be written. Two or three sentences: what I kept circling around, what changed my mind, what I put down half way.
Honorable
mentions
Nos.15–11
No.10
Evolution: What Everyone Needs to Know
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No.9
The Culture Map: Breaking Through the Invisible Boundaries of Global Business
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No.8
Risk Savvy: How to Make Good Decisions
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No.7
Norwegian Wood
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No.6
The Myths of Happiness: What Should Make You Happy, but Doesn’t, What Shouldn’t Make You Happy, but Does
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No.5
Steve Jobs
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No.4
How to Change Your Mind: What the New Science of Psychedelics Teaches Us About Consciousness, Dying, Addiction, Depression, and Transcendence
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No.3
The Inflamed Mind: A Radical New Approach to Depression
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No.2
The Formula: The Universal Laws of Success
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No.1
Scale: The Universal Laws of Growth, Innovation, Sustainability, and the Pace of Life in Organisms, Cities, Economies, and Companies
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2019
How 2019 read — to be written. Two or three sentences: what I kept circling around, what changed my mind, what I put down half way.
Honorable
mentions
Nos.15–11
No.10
Misbehaving: The Making of Behavioral Economics
What this one changed — to be written.
No.9
Seven Brief Lessons on Physics
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No.8
Der Ernährungskompass (The Diet Compass)
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No.7
Why We Sleep: Unlocking the Power of Sleep and Dreams
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No.6
Stumbling on Happiness
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No.5
The Strange Order of Things: Life, Feeling, and the Making of Cultures
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No.4
When Breath Becomes Air
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No.3
The Science of Trust: Emotional Attunement for Couples
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No.2
Flow: The Psychology of Optimal Experience
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No.1
The Black Swan: The Impact of the Highly Improbable
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2018
How 2018 read — to be written. Two or three sentences: what I kept circling around, what changed my mind, what I put down half way.
Honorable
mentions
Nos.15–11
No.10
Die Verwandlung (The Metamorphosis)
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No.9
Animal Farm
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No.8
Crito
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No.7
Requiem for the American Dream: The 10 Principles of Concentration of Wealth & Power
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No.6
Factfulness: Ten Reasons We’re Wrong About the World — and Why Things Are Better Than You Think
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No.5
Das Glasperlenspiel (The Glass Bead Game)
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No.4
Der Steppenwolf (Steppenwolf)
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No.3
The Disordered Mind: What Unusual Brains Tell Us About Ourselves
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No.2
The Marshmallow Test: Mastering Self-Control
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No.1
Debt: The First 5,000 Years
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birth – 2017
Before any of the reading, there was this: comics, cartridges and television, from a childhood in Heilbronn. Counted the same way as the books and taken about as seriously.
No.1
Garfield Comics
What this one was — to be written. A line on why it stuck, not a review.
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Super Mario Sunshine
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Scrubs
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The Legend of Zelda: The Wind Waker
What this one was — to be written. A line on why it stuck, not a review.
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Star Wars, Episodes I–VI
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No.1
How I Met Your Mother
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Mario Smash Football
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No.1
Pokémon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers of Time
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No.1
Pokémon Ruby
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My Intellectual heroes
Grouped by the questions they opened, not by discipline. They taught me how to think, not what to think — and several of them contradict each other flatly.
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The first psychologist who really held me, and the book came to me rather than the other way round: I won Thinking, Fast and Slow at eighteen, my school’s prize for economics.
I read it and knew at once that there was real scholarly work in front of me. Quietly, over years, it set my assumptions about human nature, about how far rationality actually reaches, and about how economic agents behave once you aggregate them into a market. Some of the studies it cites have since failed to replicate, and that criticism is fair and worth taking seriously — but the foundation held. Most of what I now think about judgement under uncertainty still rests on it.
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Cartesian dualism never convinced me, but nobody had shown me what the alternative looked like in practice. He did.
The Divided Mind was the first umbrella I had seen wide enough to hold the whole problem: fractal brain networks, genome-wide atlases and polygenic risk scores, gene expression mapped onto the networks themselves, epigenetics, developmental trajectories through synaptic pruning with adolescence as the window where it goes wrong, and the immune system inside the brain down to the microglia. Separately I had read all of it. From him I read it as one account of how a disorder like schizophrenia might actually come about — and it was the first time biological psychiatry felt coherent to me rather than assembled out of parts. The Inflamed Mind does it again for depression, and so do his lectures. I have not read anyone who joins the fields better.
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Essays, opinion pieces, talks and video on psychiatry, medicine and adjacent questions.
2018 – 2025, kept up
Eight years of reading, counted down from the honorable mentions to number one, with what each one changed. Starts at 2025 and runs back to a childhood in Heilbronn.
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2026
The book that first showed me what a biological explanation of psychiatric illness could look like, and the argument that the split between brain and mind has done real harm.
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Two or three lines of preview: enough to say what the piece is about and why it is worth the reader’s time.
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A second long piece: the question it starts from, the turn in the middle and where it leaves the reader.
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A short argument about clinical practice, research culture or the way psychiatry talks about itself.
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One claim, the evidence behind it, and what it would change on a normal working day.
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Conference talk, interview or explainer. The block links straight to the recording.
Watch→One question runs through all of it: why the same hardship leaves one person ill and another well. I work at the join between psychiatry and neuroscience, following that question from the acute stress response through the long course of depression, and I care most about findings that survive contact with a second sample.
What early adversity leaves behind in the way body and brain answer an acute psychosocial stressor — cortisol, network dynamics, and what separates the people who recover quickly from those who do not.
Why an episode lifts, lingers or returns. Chronicity, remission and relapse traced through large longitudinal cohorts rather than a single time point.
The methods that make the first two questions answerable: fMRI and MR spectroscopy alongside physiological signals, read with machine learning and judged by whether the result generalises.
Publications
Childhood adversity and the longitudinal relationship with depressive symptomatology: chronicity, remission, and relapse in the Health and Retirement Study.
Theta tACS for cognitive impairment in Alzheimer’s disease: a meta-analysis.
Interaction among heart rate variability, neurometabolites and childhood maltreatment during a social stress imaging task.
Effects of childhood adversity on the relationship among resting state network dynamics, cortisol and subjective status after an acute psychosocial stressor.
Childhood adversity interacts with the relationship among brain network dynamics, cortisol and subjective status after an acute psychosocial stressor.
Der Einfluss von Kindheitstraumatisierung auf psychosozialen Stress bei gesunden Erwachsenen: eine fMRT-Studie.
Department of Psychiatry and Psychology.
Friedrich Schiller University Jena.
Advisors: Dr Lejla Colic and Prof Dr Martin Walter.
Thesis: “placeholder”
Granted in 2025.
Shanghai International Studies University (上海外国语大学).
Gustav von Schmoller Schule, Heilbronn.
Football with my friends until it got dark, piano at home, and long evenings with Pokémon Ruby and The Legend of Zelda.
Questions and collaborations are welcome.